My musings, thoughts revelations and humorous observations on my life and life in general
Hey everyone! When we first started this website I had a blog called "How-to-Haiti" which was a fun idea, but I never wrote anything. Anyway, I was just sitting here nursing and thought "Hey! I should start up my blog again and use the times I nurse my little one to write it" (instead of pursuing Facebook, watching YouTube, playing games on my phone, whatever). So, I introduce.....
Missions and Mothering
Thoughts on living abroad, raising mini disciples, and life in general
Not sure how this will go, but here goes.....
Priorities, Pride and letting go
So lately God has been challenging me to examine my priorities and strive for excellence in those things that that need to be stewarded in my life.
Basically this is the fancy way of saying "figure out what God wants you to do, and do your best at it", and this has been......
Not because I don't know what things God wants, because I do. And it's not because I don't know what it looks like to be excellent at those things, because I do. (Actually I don't completely, but that's ok, I'm learning!). It's the excellence part I'm having issues getting right.
But before I get to why I'm having issues with that, let me tell you what I am working to be excellent at.
I am striving for excellence in a few areas of my life. I'm aiming for:
1. Soul nourishing quiet times with God that I apply to daily life
2. A more intimate and loving relationship with my husband
3. Attentive loving and mothering of my children, and discipling them and helping them to grow up loving God
4. Caring for my friends/coworkers on a more intimate level
5. Accomplishing my tasks here on the YWAM Haiti with speed and excellence.
6. Having a clean, cool (cool because we live in Haiti, and no one wants to be warm! 😉) inviting Home to share with others.
OK, these are just a few of the things I am wanting to do, I can add a lot lot more, but lets stick with this for now.
Now onto why excellence is my issue.
You see, I have all these ideas in my head of what excellence in these areas looks like, and usually they are exploded versions of what I should actually be doing.
Let me explain.
I like having a clean house. Period. I like having things swept, mopped, dusted and picked up, an laundry done. And when you live in Haiti, things always need to be swept, mopped and dusted, and when you have kids things always need to be picked up and laundry always needs to be done. And it's actually one of those type things I'm striving for, but sometimes I let it get out of hand. I would be so focused on getting the house clean that I would start ignoring the other things I needed to be stewarding better, mainly my kids, and my husband.
This is where the Priorities, Pride, and Letting Go part kicks in.
My husband recognized that things were getting out of hand, and I was so stressed out from trying to get everything done that he brought back a subject we had touched on before... hiring a housekeeper.
Now like I said before, I prided myself on getting everything done...myself. But, knowing my stress level, he was right. I wasn't able to do the other, more important things on my list with the excellence they needed and deserved, and I wanted to steward everything well, not just my home. So, we hired a housekeeper to come once a week to come and clean for 4 hours. She is wonderful. Not just because she reduces my workload down by leaps and bounds, but because having her in my life has helped me to realize that my priorities were really out of whack, and even though I was stewarding something God told me too, I was actually neglecting more important things that needed more attention than clean floors.
So, thats my life right now. Learning what to prioritize, when to prioritize, how to steward and just lead an excellent life in God's eyes. I'm a work in progress, and kinda glad that there is no such thing as perfect. (Except God of course!)
Let me know your thoughts, musing, or jokes! :)